29 December, 2008
It will be cool when people get back
I’d really like to hang out with someone, even over the phone. But everybody is always busy. I wish someone would call me. Interrupting people’s movies and bar visits is getting old.
The railroad bulls are blind
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains there's a land that's fair and bright
Where the handouts grow on bushes and you sleep out every night
Where the boxcars are all empty and the sun shines every day
On the birds and the bees and the cigarette trees
Where the lemonade springs where the bluebird sings
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
Where the handouts grow on bushes and you sleep out every night
Where the boxcars are all empty and the sun shines every day
On the birds and the bees and the cigarette trees
Where the lemonade springs where the bluebird sings
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
28 December, 2008
27 December, 2008
Okay nevermind
After a good-night’s rest (actually I’m not sure that I slept at all) I feel a lot worse.
I need to be careful about how I handle this. My natural response is to figure out a way to never go through this again, but the only way to do that is to never get attached to someone again. That isn’t a road I should go down.
Now would probably be a good time to go back to my Buddhist practice. I can’t think of a more effective way to clear myself of attachments, and that is probably the best thing to do.
Man, dangit, I mean, dang, you know? Ugh.
I need to be careful about how I handle this. My natural response is to figure out a way to never go through this again, but the only way to do that is to never get attached to someone again. That isn’t a road I should go down.
Now would probably be a good time to go back to my Buddhist practice. I can’t think of a more effective way to clear myself of attachments, and that is probably the best thing to do.
Man, dangit, I mean, dang, you know? Ugh.
Dang man.
So Nora and I are breaking up. This is my first time ever going through this. I don’t know what to do, really.
I don’t feel very bad, because I know things will end up fine. I mean, we still like each other etc, and I mean all it takes is some time to heal this, and either we’ll start going out again or I’ll find someone else. Of course it’ll end all right.
You know that feeling you get when you know you’re missing something? That nagging sensation? Yet you’re unable to put your finger on what you don’t have. That is exactly how I feel right now. Exactly.
That said, I’m sure I have some really hard nights ahead of me.
I hope this heals quickly, as opposed to, you know, slowly.
I don’t feel very bad, because I know things will end up fine. I mean, we still like each other etc, and I mean all it takes is some time to heal this, and either we’ll start going out again or I’ll find someone else. Of course it’ll end all right.
You know that feeling you get when you know you’re missing something? That nagging sensation? Yet you’re unable to put your finger on what you don’t have. That is exactly how I feel right now. Exactly.
That said, I’m sure I have some really hard nights ahead of me.
I hope this heals quickly, as opposed to, you know, slowly.
23 December, 2008
Internet rules?
Are there any websites that cover basic guidelines for websites? I mean, I know there's w3.org, but they are a bit techy. And I'm not talking about rule 34 and rule 1, etc. on ED either.
I mean basic rules like “content areas of your website should have a white background with black text, and links should be blue and underlined.” “Never require any information about a user unless your site contains features that only make sense for individual users, or your website is a porn site.” “Do not use a sitemaker program—learn html it is easy.” “etc.”
If there aren’t any, I might make one. See if anybody notices.
I mean basic rules like “content areas of your website should have a white background with black text, and links should be blue and underlined.” “Never require any information about a user unless your site contains features that only make sense for individual users, or your website is a porn site.” “Do not use a sitemaker program—learn html it is easy.” “etc.”
If there aren’t any, I might make one. See if anybody notices.
21 December, 2008
20 December, 2008
To page this person, press 5
When you call my phone, you will no longer hear that. Unfortunately, you will still hear “Please leave a message after the tone. When you are finished recording, hang up, or press 1 for more options.”
Man, removing the page thing was a hassle, and it wasn’t even the bulk of the message. I had to go to a menu item under administration called “cut through paging” or something and I disabled paging completely. If only there were a way to disable the message. That is all I waaaant!
Man, removing the page thing was a hassle, and it wasn’t even the bulk of the message. I had to go to a menu item under administration called “cut through paging” or something and I disabled paging completely. If only there were a way to disable the message. That is all I waaaant!
19 December, 2008
New phone update
Who knew you could just go to AT&T and just ask for a different phone and they would give you a different one? I changed it out for the much more beautiful Pantech Breeze, which is a phone designed for the elderly and handicapped.
Think about it—this means it must have a great user-interface and good sound quality. These are all I care about!
Anyway my new phone’s current name is Francis McDrunk. If things go well over the next couple weeks I will upgrade it to Francis McPatrick.
Think about it—this means it must have a great user-interface and good sound quality. These are all I care about!
Anyway my new phone’s current name is Francis McDrunk. If things go well over the next couple weeks I will upgrade it to Francis McPatrick.
My new phone
Based on reviews I've read and the 10 minutes I've spent poking around on the phone, its current name is Fuckface McDrunk. If it surprises me and does well, I will upgrade its name. If it surprises me by going lower than my already-low expectations, I will downgrade its name. Otherwise, go ahead and call me and you will hear me talking on Fuckface McDrunk.
I have to get a new phone :(
I really like this old phone. It has served me very well and has never failed at the simple, most important task of allowing me to talk to people who are not physically close to me.
Phone, you have never waivered in doing a good job. You are falling apart, yet your battery is good as ever. You get wonderful reception all the time (even sometimes in Jesse’s basement). You do not force me to have a stupid instructional phrase at the end of my voice mail, informing people that they can page me by pressing 5.
Phone, you are practical. You are everything anyone could want in a phone, and nothing else. Your internet connection sucks, your camera sucks, your features suck. This is nice, because it does not distract me from your actual purpose (you are a phone, not a game boy).
You have an antenna that I can pull out. New phones do not. I don’t know why—maybe they are obsolete now. But I still like being able to have control over the reception.
Please give a moment of silence (5–10 seconds) for my wonderful phone.
I will get a new phone later today. I hope it serves me as well as you have. Even if it does, I will not forget the two years of quality service that you have given to me.
Yours,
Matt
Phone, you have never waivered in doing a good job. You are falling apart, yet your battery is good as ever. You get wonderful reception all the time (even sometimes in Jesse’s basement). You do not force me to have a stupid instructional phrase at the end of my voice mail, informing people that they can page me by pressing 5.
Phone, you are practical. You are everything anyone could want in a phone, and nothing else. Your internet connection sucks, your camera sucks, your features suck. This is nice, because it does not distract me from your actual purpose (you are a phone, not a game boy).
You have an antenna that I can pull out. New phones do not. I don’t know why—maybe they are obsolete now. But I still like being able to have control over the reception.
Please give a moment of silence (5–10 seconds) for my wonderful phone.
I will get a new phone later today. I hope it serves me as well as you have. Even if it does, I will not forget the two years of quality service that you have given to me.
Yours,
Matt
18 December, 2008
Web Design!
You know what feels awesome? Finishing up a page design, throwing it onto browsershots, and finding out that it works perfectly even in internet explorer 5.5! (and 6.0 and 7.0 and 8.0!)
I mean, it is a very simple design, but I have seen many a simple design fail these browsers.
Yaaaay!
I mean, it is a very simple design, but I have seen many a simple design fail these browsers.
Yaaaay!
17 December, 2008
Dieting
So I am looking into dieting. It is kind of fun because basically nowhere is geared toward the type of dieting I want to do (ie I need to eat more, not less). I should be getting 2,000–2,500 calories per day depending on how active I am, and normally I think I get about 1,000. That is very unhealthy!
So yeah, I need to double my food intake somehow. Meaning I am going to start trying to count calories, etc.
Calorie-counting is hard! It’s like, I get a big ten burrito. I don’t know how many calories are in there! Is there a website somewhere where you can just enter in amounts of ingrediants, and it gives you nutrition facts? I mean that would be super.
There are a lot of websites that offer calorie information, but it is based on something someone else filled out. For example, thedailyplate.com says a burrito is 300 calories. I don’t know if you’ve eaten a big ten burrito, but I would guess that there are well over double that amout in a big ten burrito.
Back to how I am unusual in the way I am doing this, it’s fun to see sites that say, like, “How to cut calories out of such and such.” They are everywhere. You never find anything that’s like, “looking for some extra calories? Put 2 lbs. swiss cheese on top of everything you eat!”
Do people really eat so much that they need to watch their calories? I am going to have a hard time making sure that I eat enough. I just find it unfathomable that most people not only eat double what I eat, but probably eat triple what I eat, because they need to cut back on their intake.
The other thing I need to look at is actual nutrition. I think I am going to try to drink 2 cans of ensure per day, so I won’t need vitamins. They will be good snacks in between meals. Also they are 350 calories, so that takes care of one third of my food. They would also cover half of my protein and have a lot of unsaturated fats. They also have a lot of sugar, so I shouldn’t eat a bunch of other sweet things.
I think I should make a huge amount of steel cut oats regularly. Like, in a stock pot. That way I would only need to heat up however much I wanted whenever I wanted it. Oats have like, mad fiber.
I also need to eat vegetables. I think I will eat in the cafeteria a couple times a week, and pile on vegetables when I do. Otherwise, I just need to start buying vegetables and cooking them.
Anyway I’m rambling at this point, so I’ll cut this off.
So yeah, I need to double my food intake somehow. Meaning I am going to start trying to count calories, etc.
Calorie-counting is hard! It’s like, I get a big ten burrito. I don’t know how many calories are in there! Is there a website somewhere where you can just enter in amounts of ingrediants, and it gives you nutrition facts? I mean that would be super.
There are a lot of websites that offer calorie information, but it is based on something someone else filled out. For example, thedailyplate.com says a burrito is 300 calories. I don’t know if you’ve eaten a big ten burrito, but I would guess that there are well over double that amout in a big ten burrito.
Back to how I am unusual in the way I am doing this, it’s fun to see sites that say, like, “How to cut calories out of such and such.” They are everywhere. You never find anything that’s like, “looking for some extra calories? Put 2 lbs. swiss cheese on top of everything you eat!”
Do people really eat so much that they need to watch their calories? I am going to have a hard time making sure that I eat enough. I just find it unfathomable that most people not only eat double what I eat, but probably eat triple what I eat, because they need to cut back on their intake.
The other thing I need to look at is actual nutrition. I think I am going to try to drink 2 cans of ensure per day, so I won’t need vitamins. They will be good snacks in between meals. Also they are 350 calories, so that takes care of one third of my food. They would also cover half of my protein and have a lot of unsaturated fats. They also have a lot of sugar, so I shouldn’t eat a bunch of other sweet things.
I think I should make a huge amount of steel cut oats regularly. Like, in a stock pot. That way I would only need to heat up however much I wanted whenever I wanted it. Oats have like, mad fiber.
I also need to eat vegetables. I think I will eat in the cafeteria a couple times a week, and pile on vegetables when I do. Otherwise, I just need to start buying vegetables and cooking them.
Anyway I’m rambling at this point, so I’ll cut this off.
16 December, 2008
Je dois écrire plus en français
C'est vraiment plus difficile pour moi d'écrire en français, et je pense que je n’utilise pas la meilleure grammaire.
J’ai gagné un “B+” en une de mes classes! Je m'attendais un “C” ou “C+,” donc je suis très heureux à ce moment. Youpi!
J’ai gagné un “B+” en une de mes classes! Je m'attendais un “C” ou “C+,” donc je suis très heureux à ce moment. Youpi!
Ma mère a trouvé mon blog!
C'est en peut bizarre, n'est-ce pas? Je ne sais pas si elle peut lire cette passage (parce-qu'elle est en français, bien-sûr). Salut maman, si vous lisez ceci!
11 December, 2008
Nathan Milstein
I dare you to name for me a single violinist who is greater than Nathan Milstein (you can’t).
09 December, 2008
07 December, 2008
spam
Why is spam worded the way it is (i.e. your manliness is to be d3termined by how many inches r inside your penis). Do spammers think I will be more likely to respond if they sound like total morons?
Math Homework is harder now
I have one of those splotchy 80-sheet notebooks for math homework. Two years ago, when I did my homework, I could fit 10–15 problems on a single sheet. Now I am fitting one problem on 2–5 sheets of paper.
It’s a good thing I enjoy it.
It’s a good thing I enjoy it.
05 December, 2008
GNALPRHGLPH
God DAMMIT my life is just FRUSTRATING as HELL right now
I mean things aren’t that bad in general it is just a combination of stress, lack of nourishment, “other,” and then my now-stronger-than-ever reflex to belittle all of my own feelings to the point where I feel like there is a fucking earthquake of anger going on in my belly. I mean, I actually feel rumbling!
I guess everybody has their own way of beating themselves up when they are angry as hell—I spent a good while quietly banging my head against the wall, and it has given me a splitting headache that I still have. I hope that’s gone tomorrow.
In a few weeks, I will feel so much better. I guess that’s something. But right now I am just angry as FUCK. I just want to make a huge double-sized piñata of myself and just start completely destroying it with a bat, a golf club, and a shovel. And when the piñata is unrecogizable I would just look at it and say “HI HOW ARE YOU MATT. ARE YOU DOING FINE ON THIS FINE DAY. TODAY IS FINE. I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING AS MUCH FUN AS I AM.” Then I guess I would step on any pieces of myself that weren’t completely destroyed.
PHGAGHLGRAPPGHARL! GNLPRNHPLRGNHP!!
I have work in 6 hours, I should see if I’m capable of falling asleep right now.
I mean things aren’t that bad in general it is just a combination of stress, lack of nourishment, “other,” and then my now-stronger-than-ever reflex to belittle all of my own feelings to the point where I feel like there is a fucking earthquake of anger going on in my belly. I mean, I actually feel rumbling!
I guess everybody has their own way of beating themselves up when they are angry as hell—I spent a good while quietly banging my head against the wall, and it has given me a splitting headache that I still have. I hope that’s gone tomorrow.
In a few weeks, I will feel so much better. I guess that’s something. But right now I am just angry as FUCK. I just want to make a huge double-sized piñata of myself and just start completely destroying it with a bat, a golf club, and a shovel. And when the piñata is unrecogizable I would just look at it and say “HI HOW ARE YOU MATT. ARE YOU DOING FINE ON THIS FINE DAY. TODAY IS FINE. I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING AS MUCH FUN AS I AM.” Then I guess I would step on any pieces of myself that weren’t completely destroyed.
PHGAGHLGRAPPGHARL! GNLPRNHPLRGNHP!!
I have work in 6 hours, I should see if I’m capable of falling asleep right now.
04 December, 2008
The Double-Armed Yawn
I was just thinking. Nobody actually wakes up in the morning and yawns with both arms. Maybe that is the secret to waking up properly. I hope I remember to try that tomorrow morning.
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