I'm gone for a while (not really)

Okay I've cooled down now. I'm not going to be on my computer until Sunday. I'm not cutting myself off, I'm just leaving my computer alone. I might leave it for longer. I don't know. Either way, if you want to get ahold of me, I still use the phone and I still exist on the physical plane. So there are two simple ways to contact me. I'll make another post when I get back on. Until that post, bye blog, and bye internet!

Fuck it

I am as angry as all hell right now. Night.

Dangit!

Why the heck can't I make myself do things when I want to, all of the time! Or at least most of the time. Just 50% of the time would be great. I am so sick of being around 25%, if that. I am such a waste of a human being. I hate it.

Deleted another 7 gigs

I am down to 50.2 GB of music now. I am very happy about this. 25 days instead of 32. This calls for a celebration. By celebration, what I mean is that I got the soundtrack to Reefer Madness: The Movie Musical off BitTorrent. This soundtrack does not actually exist, but I guess that's a lie, because it very clearly does exist.

Who just deleted 4GB of music!

Me. (I did.)

Tired Matt, you are not invited to my parties

I just went biking with Anneka and Alex Houser and Matt#2, and found myself to be shaking and sweating and having a real hard time catching up. I recalled the fact that I got about 4.5 hours of sleep last night (12:30 - 5:00). Then I rewinded to the night before where I got 3 hours of sleep (4:00 - 7:00). I blame my inability to do physical activity on my lack of sleep. I stopped during the bike ride and told the crew I really couldn't do it, and they were very understanding, and now I am home. Thanks guys for being understanding!

Anyway I will be sleeping as soon as it gets dark tonight, and waking up some time later.

Hey

All in all, I am feeling pretty good about my life right now. Although if school were to start tomorrow I know for a fact I would not be ready, I am getting there slowly and surely. I'm not sure how clear I've been about this, so, for those of you who don't know, I am trying my best to solve my problem of not being able to make myself do work. It's a trickier problem than it sounds like, since I actually have a very reasonable work ethic, and have had one for a while. While at the temple, I would think nothing of working almost literally for the entire day. At a job, I work hard, have a good attitude, blah blah blah sorry if it sounds like I'm bragging.

Problem is, if I know that I'm the only person watching myself, then bam, no work gets done ever. The problem is not what I thought it was, that I can't do work. Obviously, I can do work. By the by, when it comes to studying, if I study with someone, I study hard and well. If I study alone, I never start studying. So it isn't that I cannot do it, it's that I don't do it. So I just don't really know how to deal with this. Yes I could just have a bunch of study partners, but I can't go through college depending on that. That would be pretty silly. I think this is something that I have to not think about so much, and just do it rather than anything else. But that is hard for me.

I have the last song from Reefer Madness the Movie Musical stuck in my head. It is the one that is like da da, da, da da da da, da, da, da da, da, da da da da, da, da

Do I need to be more assertive?

Yeah I think I do. I'm too much of a pushover I think

I hate how people try to make money off of every dang thing

I am downloading Cave Story for Jake from some website, and they are bombarding me with things saying I should register. Basically, it's one of those downloads pages that if you are a paying member they give you all the benefits that they could easily give to everybody, but if you are not a member, you have to wait one minute, and while you wait ads pop up, and you have to go through all these validation things (while reading their reminder that, had you been a paying "premium" member, you would not have to deal with this). Seriously. I know we all have to make money somehow, but there is a time when it gets ridiculous. Everybody knows that most sites now will not put you through all that crap to download something. Why the heck would anybody ever become a member. There is not a reason for this to happen.

Okay I'm done.

Ha ha!

If I were a Dead Russian Composer, I would be Aleksandr Borodin. Son of a 19th Century Russian prince and a...non-royal...mother, I went to medical school and became a biochemist. Most people, however, (and probably my twenty cats as well) agree that they'd trade all of my scientific discoveries for another set of "Polovetsian Dances."

I find this amusing because it is basically wrong.

Imaginary Friends

I've created a couple of imaginary people. Lazarus and Mara are their names. Now that I'm writing about it I'm starting to realise that you might think I'm going crazy if I start to describe them. So I'll spare you.

Q&A with MATT (part 1)

Q: Matt is it really true that when you are tired your body weighs a lot more and is heavy to carry upstairs?
A: Yes.

Good night!

It's like, when a guy in traffic is honking, in a way he is actually crying out for his own dong!

Buddha's Birthday Lanterns

Here are a couple of cute lantern dedications made by children:

I Love my mom who lives in Las Vegas, Nevada and We miss each Other and I love my mom

poor people should be rich

I happened to notice these two. All I could think when reading the first one was "awwwww." As for the second one, it was more of a "haha great." Sometimes kids can write things that (I think) are pretty cool.

OH SHIT STINGING NETTLES

owwwwwww

Haha!

After looking around a bit, I noticed that I update my blog more than anybody I know. Also, my updates are generally more trivial than anyone I know. Heh. I win my competition!

Also, speaking of competitions, not a single person has entered my drop cookie competition. Seriously. Everybody who gives a recipe gets cookies! And the winner gets pie! I mean, come on! Even if your recipe for cookies sucks by comparison to the one I pick, you still get cookies at least. I mean, I am not kidding about this competition. It is real.

Right now I am spending most of my time cleaning my house, and transliterating Korean Buddhist chants. Pretty dull, to be honest. Although I'll be hanging out with Shoshana on Monday. That should be a bucketload of fun.

Also I picked up Gödel Escher Bach again after not reading it for a couple weeks. Good book. Seriously. I'm at the part where Mr. T. discovers that "headache" begins and ends with "he" and has A, D, A, and C consecutively within it. Good book. Seriously.

Also I found a book that Shoshana gave me more than two years ago called Jonathan Livingston Seagull. Good book. Oddly enough, it gave me an understanding of a Buddhist concept that I've had a lot of doubts about (the Bodhisattva). I have to go to the temple now bye.

Hm.

I was just about to make a post saying "OH MAN I FEEL AWESOME" but then I realised this is how I am always feeling after I have no real social contact for a few days. I wonder if this is a message I should be paying attention to.

! ! !

I am clean-shaven! Also I didn't cut myself at all! Even with my zits! That's the first time in more than a month! I'm getting better at this!

I need to shave.

I need to shave.

COOKING CONTEST

Okay, whoever finds the best no-bake cookie recipe by Sunday the 21st wins! The prize is that I will make them a pie. Everyone who participates will get cookies. Go!

EDIT: By the way, when I say best, I am looking not only for taste, but for them to be easy to make, quick to make, and cheap and easy ingredients. Taste is not the highest priority when making no-bake cookies. So once again, Go!

MUCH LATER EDIT (9:45): Please don't give me recipes that are just easy to find on the internet. I am looking more for the kind of recipe that your grandma always made for you and one day you said "Grandma what is your secret to these really good drop cookies" and then she gave you the recipe. Seriously. Anybody can just find a recipe on the internet. And I'm gonna make a dang good pie, too.